I have a vivid memory of me as a young child standing in my grandmother’s front yard in Clovis, New Mexico, staring up at the hot desert sun and pondering the question of why people go to church to learn about Jesus when he was right in their heart. I actually remember touching my heart and whispering, “Why can’t they hear him in here?”
What prompted this pondering was the constant judgment and damnation I kept hearing from all the “Christians.” The Jesus they were finding in church was not the same Jesus I had in my heart. Mine was always, without exception, kind, compassionate and unconditionally loving of everyone.
I learned to dislike the churchgoers’ Jesus. And eventually the noise of the world drowned out the Jesus in my heart.
In journeying back into my heart with great focus and intention these past 18 months, I have come to realize there is something more than a beautiful man named Jesus in there. There is me, waking up in his arms.
I have, as Marianne Williamson says, woken up and returned to love.
Years before her famous book club, Oprah Winfrey said on national television that she had never before been so moved by any book as she was by Marianne Williamson’s book A Return to Love. She was so moved in fact, she bought 1000 copies to give to friends and family.
In the introduction to her book, Williamson says:
“When we were born, we were programmed perfectly. We had a natural tendency to focus on love. Our imaginations were creative and flourishing, and we knew how to use them. We were connected to a world much richer than the one we connect to now, a world full of enchantment and a sense of the miraculous.”
What happens from there, she says, is that we were taught to think unnaturally and focus away from love.
“We were taught to think thoughts like competition, struggle, sickness, finite resources, limitation, guilt, bad, death, scarcity, and loss… We were taught that things like grades, being good enough, money, and doing things the right way, are more important than love… We were taught to see the world the way that others had come to see it. It’s as though, as soon as got here, we were given a sleeping pill.”
If love is what we were born with and fear is what we have learned, then the most important thing we can ever do for our own well-being and the well-being of our planet is WAKE UP!
There is a new world waiting for just that miracle.
So how does one wake up? Well, for starters it might be helpful to read Marianne’s book or re-read it if it has been a while.
But more importantly, the real first step is a willingness to look at the world inside and around you with awakened questioning. Start with yourself, looking honestly at everything you believe, think, say and do. Fear or love-based? Find the courage and resources to start removing all fear from your thoughts and beliefs, and what follows in your words and deeds will be love.
Look carefully at the underlying messages and motives of your faith and your government. Fear or love-based? Use the discerning guidance of your heart to know the difference…and trust love. If you don’t find the motives that feel right in your leaders, you may realize you are actually the love you and others have been waiting for.
Look carefully at what influences your opinions, spending, education and priorities. Fear or love-based influence? Are you being manipulated into conformity or encouraged to express your uniquely true self? If you find yourself holding back on expressing your own glorious voice or choice for fear of what others might say or expect, this is a sure sign there’s a magnificent YOU pleading to wake up and live freely.
As you begin to wake up and the fog of fear begins to clear, you will remember more and more of who you are, why you are here, and what you are capable of experiencing and manifesting through love. Your motivation doesn’t need to be finding Jesus. In fact, he said the love we are looking for is inside us, like his love was within him. His source of love and ours are the same, and we are here on this Earth to experience BEing that love.
So, in the new world I envision, we are all magnificently, gloriously, beamingly, wide awake. And I can’t wait to see the new you there – and the new us, together.